My aim is to feel good about myself. That includes making choices that make me feel good, especially thinking of the long term kind of feeling. There are certain choices I made over and over again and they gave me 2 minutes of a nice feeling. But after that I would feel shitty for the rest of the day asking myself why I had to do that (again). This is not about weight, but I feel heavy and unhealthy if I overdose the unhealthy stuff like chocolate or biscuits. While making a good choice affects my mood in a nice way making me feel confident and in charge of my own life, poor choices make me feel like a dumb little child who can’t do what she knows works best for her even after 27 years. That is the aim behind me doing fitness or eating healthy. The result is the exact opposite of doing unhealthy things. I might feel a bit lazy and it’s hard to start, but once I’m done in the gym or ate in a smart way I feel totally awesome for the rest of the day. Same goes for practicing the piano, cleaning up the apartment and so on.
Understanding. I don’t ask for my friends to agree to everything I do, think or say. We all do mistakes, we all have flaws. What I want for them is to try to understand me, don’t judge me for who I am and tell me when I went wrong, without actually cutting me off for it. When you have a real friend it doesn’t matter how long you haven’t talked. The minute you sit together it seems like not a minute has passed. And that person will still understand you, because you know each other to the core. <3